塔林airbnb Host
 Tallinn airbnb Host
 

到塔林車站了!Arrive in Tallinn station!
第一晚睡的主人房,貓貓只愛黏着主人,客人在時不會跳上床My first night in Tallinn. The cat won’t jump on bed if guest is there.
第二晚我被踢去了客房,比主人房凍…I was kicked to the guest room in the second night, it’s colder than the master bedroom…
可愛貓Lovely cat
塔林的二手市集,梗檔,日日都開Second hand market in Tallinn, all fixed stores, open everyday
強國貨入侵!Made in China!
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塔林host是整段歐洲旅程中,唯一拒絕我畫畫的人,所以上圖是空白的,只有畫框,沒有畫。

 

畫畫真要講緣分,有時模特兒不合作,或與模特兒不過電,都不是好畫。

 

在整段歐洲旅程中,塔林最令我失望,host冷漠,景點水皮,食物一般,由金碧輝煌的聖彼得堡來到不毛之地的塔林,反差極大;在塔林期間,我又吃錯東西肚子痛,真是慘上加慘,唯有宅在家休息兼計劃未來行程;我在塔林留五晚,其實我好想提早離開,但車票一早訂好,難以改票,唯有坐困愁城。

 

在這淒淒慘慘冷冷清清的失望塔林,畫畫是我的安慰、亮光與希望;再多的憂慮、再重的憤怒,透過筆尖輕輕流出,化作色彩斑爛/黑白深沉的繪畫實物,那些灰暗感情,就會「噗」地一掃而空,回復清爽心境。

我一直在歐洲旅行兼畫Picture the Hosts Project,到過莫斯科、倫敦、哥本哈根、奧斯陸、斯德哥爾摩、赫爾辛基與聖彼得堡,每次繪畫host的畫,都與他/她們有種「心有靈犀一點通」的感覺,畫畫令我更瞭解眼前的人;但今次塔林host拒絕我畫畫,我就畫幻想式的人類最終進化系列,這個釋放內心想像的畫,卻令我更瞭解自己。

 

 

在塔林,我覺得自己似張會行走的銀紙。

 

在塔林我找不到CS Host,唯有轉投airbnb,25歐元一晚單人房,客廳擁無敵180度大海景,景色倒是靚絕歐洲全部Host,而且客廳窗台極深,可以坐在窗邊,舒服地邊看海邊食嘢,是這間屋的唯一好處。

 

airbnb Host叫Kadri,29歲女子,此屋兩房一廁,開放式廚房,單位逾千呎,未知Kadri是此房的業主還是租客,她說自己還在讀書,主修心理,副營airbnb。

在我訂房時,與入住日子僅相差數天,當時我問Kadri:「在我入住期間,仲有無其他人?」

Kadri聲稱:「只有我會住在此屋。」

原來那是語言偽術。

當我第一晚抵達時,才發現屋內有一位越南男子住在客房,Kadri要我第一晚睡主人房,第二晚搬回客房;第二天,越南男子離開,Kadri的女性友人來借宿,睡客廳梳化;第三天,女性好友離開,Kadri男朋友來借宿,與Kadri一齊瞓主人房。短短五晚,共計五人在此屋出出入入、來來往往,而Kadri的「只有我會住在此屋」無騙我,的確只有她一個人長期住在那屋子,但她卻隱瞞那幾天會有多人住在屋子的事實;屋子又有諸多規矩,例如抹枱只能用某種布,曬衫又規定擺放衣服鞋襪的前後次序,完全不似她在airbnb網站聲稱的「easy going」,我覺得Kadri不誠實、不真誠、難相處,結識此人是個遺憾。

 

 

我很生氣,我俾錢Kadri賺,憑什麼要受她的氣?

但若Kadri是CS Host,如果我是免費住此房子,就算發生同樣的事,同樣五晚五人進出,同樣白痴規矩多多,Kadri同樣冷淡以待,我想我不會如此生氣,不會如此計較,因為是免費住宿,無得特別要求別人為我做什麼;由於是免費,只要無意外、無危險、無受傷,其餘的一切,我都覺得是額外收穫。

 

但airbnb是收費住宿,因為我有付錢,「付錢者為上,收錢者為下」,至少在香港的消費社會裏,我是如此被教育長大的;所以我並不認為我與Kadri的關係是平等,我是付錢的消費者,有權要求這樣那樣;而收了錢的Kadri,就有義務執行我的要求。

 

我生氣是因為收了錢的Kadri不執行我的要求;但若Kadri是免費的CS Host,我根本不會生氣,甚至會體諒;同一件事、同一個人、同一時空,收錢與否,令我出現截然不同的情緒反應,原來一個人對另一個人的觀感、感情、情緒會如此受金錢影響。

 

金錢是一個龐大的信用系統,是建構社會的一部份,如果金錢能大大影響我對他人的觀感、感情、情緒,那麼「家庭」、「學校」、「社會」等社會制約,又是否大大影響了我自以為與生俱來、純粹無瑕的「愛」、「恨」等感情呢?

 

 

我覺得在Kadri眼中,我似張會行走的銀紙,她接待我只為錢,不似其他CS Hosts為了文化交流/畫畫/互相了解對方的故事。

我主動找她傾偈,她推說很累就逃開;我也很累,但難得與當地人同住屋簷下,怎能放過瞭解異國民情的機會?

 

以往任何一位CS Host,即使有語言障礙的聖彼得堡CS Host,即使在斯德哥爾摩夜深累極,我與CS Host都明白,來自大陸兩極的人,能夠結識,並在同一時空、面對面相聚是很難得的緣份,都會把握時間對談;但我在塔林的Host是眼中只有錢的Kadri真是太可惜,難得我遠渡重洋,人在塔林,卻白白浪費瞭解愛沙尼亞的機會。

 

熱情接待不是必然,世上最珍貴的,往往無價,往往身在福中不知福。為此,我更感激每位CS Host,因為你/妳們,讓我真切地瞭解異國風情,讓我畫出Picture the Host Project的每張彩繪。

Couch Surfing的免費住宿不講金錢,卻帶來更多更多無價的回憶、友誼與歡樂。

 

甚麼是Couchsurfing? 

 

The host in Tallinn is the only one who refused to pose for me in the entire Europe trip. That’s why the above picture is EMPTY with frame only.

 

There’s always a bit luck to draw a good painting. It wouldn’t be a good painting if the model isn’t cooperate or I can’t ‘connect’ to the model.

 

Tallinn disappointed me most in the entire EU trip. The host is cold, not much can be called as scenery and the food isn’t that delicious. There is a big contrast between the golden gorgeous St. Petersburg and the nothing-to-see Tallinn.

I have a stomach ache in Tallinn so I have to stay at home and plan the travel schedule. I planned to stay in Tallinn for 5 nights and I really want to leave early but I have booked all my bus tickets ahead and they are hard to re-schedule so I just stuck in tragic Tallinn.

 

Painting is my comfort, light and hope in tragic Tallinn. The worry and anger would flow out lightly with paint brushes and become colourful/black-and-white drawings on paper and the grey emotion would be gone and a light mood return.

I am traveling in Europe and doing the Picture the Host Project and have been in Moscow, London, Copenhagen, Oslo, Stockholm, Helsinki and St. Petersburg. I think I know my hosts better and would have a ‘connect’ feeling when I finished the portraits of my hosts.

I turn to draw an imaginary drawing because the Tallinn host refused to let me draw her. I don’t have the opportunity to know this Tallinn host better but I know myself better because this imaginary Final Human Evolution drawing release my inner feeling.

 

 

I feel like I am a walking bank note when I was in Tallinn.

 

I stay with airbnb in Tallinn because I can’t find a CS host. The airbnb cost me EU$25 per night for a single room and a 180 degrees sea view in the living room. That is really the most spectacular view among all hosts in Europe and I can even sit on the windowsill to eat my lovely breakfast. That is the ONLY pros of that apartment.

 

The airbnb host in Tallinn is called Kadri. She said she is 29 years old. Her home is around 1000 square feet with 2 rooms 1 toilet with an open kitchen. I don’t know if Kadri is the owner or renter of that apartment. She said she is still at school and majoring in psychology and minoring in airbnb.

 

It is only a few days before my arrival when I booked Kadri’s room in airbnb.

I asked Kadri, ‘Would there be anybody in the apartment when I stay there?’

Kadri said, ‘There’s only me living in the apartment,’

But that is a language trap.

 

One the first night, I surprisingly find out there is a Vietnamese male living in the guest room when I arrive and Kadri arranged me to stay in the master bed room; on the second night, the Vietnamese male leave and I has to move back to the guest room and a female friend of Kadri came and sleep on the sofa in living room; on the third night, the female friend leave and Kadri’s boyfriend came and stay in the master bed room with Kadri.

FIVE people has come and stayed in FIVE nights.

Kadri doesn’t really lie to me because she is the only person who LIVING (for a long period) in the apartment but she hides the fact that so many people would come and stay in the apartment.

And there are lots of rules and regulations in the apartment such as I can only use one specify type of cloth to wipe the table and there are specify orders of hanging laundries that I have to obey.

 

Kadri is definitely NOT as ‘easy going’ as she claimed herself on Airbnb website. Kadri is NOT an honest person to me and she is not sincere nor easy going.

I am so sorry and regret that I have met her.

 

 

I am really angry.

I am giving money and I am the consumer. Why do I have to be bullied by Kadri?

But if Kadri is a CS Host and I had lived in that apartment for FREE, I don’t think I would be angry even the same things happen like FIVE people come and stay in FIVE nights, lots of stupid rules and regulations and a cold host.

I can’t ask people to do anything for me because it’s a free staying. As long as there are no accidents, no dangers, no hurt and I think it is fine and every other things are bonus for free staying.

 

I have to pay to stay with Airbnb. I was taught to believe ‘Consumers are higher, Money-receivers are lower’ in capitalism city Hong Kong. I don’t think Kadri and I are equal. I have the rights to order her because I am a consumer and Kadri has the duty to fulfill my requests because she received the money.

 

I am angry because Kadri who receive the money but not fulfilling my requests. I don’t think I will be angry or would even have sympathy on Kadri if she is a FREE CS Host.

I find out that I would have a different emotional reactions on the same person, same incidents, same time & space. I am surprise to find out my perception, emotion and mood would be greatly affected by MONEY.

 

Money is a gigantic credit system and is a part of social constructor. Would socially construction like ‘family’, ‘school’ and ‘society’ greatly affect my feelings like ‘love’ and ‘hate’ which normally believe must be nature and pure if money can greatly affected my perception, emotion and mood?

 

 

I am a walking bank note in Kadri’s eyes.

She hosts me just because of money in which totally different from CS Hosts who host me because of cultural exchange/drawing/sharing each other stories.

I have tried to talk to Kadri but she said she is tired and escape quickly. I am tired too but it’s a rare opportunity to live under the same roof with local people. How can I miss the chance to learn more first-hand foreign culture with the authentic local people?

 

All the CS Hosts I have met, including the language barrier St. Petersburg CS Host and the always-long-day-work Stockholm CS Host would understanding we come from the opposition side of the Continent. It would be a great fortune for us to meet and be face-to-face in the same time and space. We would grasp this precious opportunity to talk and share different perceptive.

It is such a pity that my host in Tallinn is Kadri who care about money only and has no intention on culture sharing. I have travel far to Tallinn but waste a golden opportunity to learn more about Estonia.

 

 

Warm hosting from heart does not inevitable.The most precious thing on Earth is always priceless and FREE and people always omit it even if they already obtain it.

I own a great thank you to every CS Host I have met because they share their culture with me and let me paint every colorful drawing in Picture the Host Project.

Couch Surfing hosting is free but it brings back lots and lots of priceless memories, friendships and joy.

 

What is Couch Surfing?

塔林的芭蕾舞劇場Ballet theatre in Tallinn
整天坐這電車趴趴走This tram is the main transportation in Tallinn
好靚的門把A beautiful doorknob
塔林塔Tallinn Tower
全市景色City outlook
在塔林也有俄式建築Russian buildings in Tallinn
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北歐風毛衣好型Northern Europe style sweater
民族少女明信片,好靚呀~Tribe maiden postcard, cool~
民族少女明信片,好靚呀~Tribe maiden postcard, cool~
民族少女明信片,好靚呀~Tribe maiden postcard, cool~
民族少女明信片,好靚呀~Tribe maiden postcard, cool~
民族少女明信片,好靚呀~Tribe maiden postcard, cool~
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塔林有好多爛屋…Rotten houses in Tallinn
塔林有好多爛屋…Rotten houses in Tallinn
塔林有好多爛屋…Rotten houses in Tallinn
塗鴉在塔林Graffiti in Tallinn
塗鴉在塔林Graffiti in Tallinn
塗鴉在塔林Graffiti in Tallinn
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北歐風毛衣好型Northern Europe style sweater
坐大巴去里加~Riding a bus to Riga~
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就似我的心情…just like my mood…
雖然塔林無想像咁好玩,但天色一樣咁靚Although Tallinn hasn’t much fun but the weather is good as elsewhere.
airbnb host對着無敵大海景Sea view in the airbnb host
睇完聖彼得芭蕾舞,乜都睇唔上眼Ballet in SPB is better…
在塔林芭蕾舞,劇場也很美Saw a ballet show in Tallinn, the theatre is beautiful
在劇場售賣戲服!Costumes are selling in the theatre!
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