都柏林  Host 盼盼

Dublin Host Panpan

 

這是盼盼,由小美人變成大美人了!
 

 

盼盼與我在香港的大學認識,她是從廣州來的交換生,我們住在同一座宿舍、同一層樓。

盼盼甚少與人爭拗,意見不合也只笑而不語,她體型嬌小,但行動卻像馬騮般機敏,眼珠黑溜溜,閃着慧黠的神采,她的黑髮是天然(超級)波浪卷,每根頭髮都攣曲如黑人,那爆炸長黑髮是她最醒目的標記。

 

 

幾年前我曾到過廣州盼盼家留宿,(謝謝盼盼與她爸媽盛情款待:)她家在三樓,要爬樓梯拾級而上,廁所是蹲式,需打水沖廁,我有生以來第一次成功在蹲式廁所上大號,那一刻真覺得,人類真是適應力頑強的生物啊……

盼盼的家在一個很悠閒的社區,街坊鄰里隨便穿件睡衣就出門,在街上吃早餐、打太極、跳廣場舞、捉棋等,盼盼也隨便穿件卡通T恤就出門了。

 

 

盼盼也曾來過我在香港的家留宿,我家廁所是坐廁,按一下即能沖水,盼盼雀躍地說:「你家廁所好先進啊。」

 

 

我真心覺得盼盼是天才,初次認識時她主修哲學,她雙眼總閃着神采,每次見面都說:「我最近迷上了這套理論……」然後開始說起馬克思主義、「殺神」尼采、「發夢王」佛洛依德等等等等等……

 

過了一、兩年,我笑問她:「今日迷上什麼理論了?」

她戚起臉,得意地笑道:「我依家迷上歷史了啦!」然後開始講起歐洲諸國簡史、亞洲史,再分評當今政經時局,說得頭頭是道,最後在大學還兼讀歷史系,以哲學、歷史雙學士畢業。

 

大學畢業後,盼盼申請到愛爾蘭的大學碩士學位,但修讀科目竟然是,數!碼!工!程!文科學士竟然轉讀電腦系的碩士,仲要在外國,仲要成功入讀,盼盼真是太厲害了……

但更厲害的還在後頭,盼盼碩士畢業後,迅即在都柏林找到了工作,而她的工作單位竟是,I!B!M!全球數一數二的科技大公司啊,人工高、福利好,還能續期簽證,更難能可貴的是,盼盼真心喜歡她的工作,今次在都柏林被她拉着猛說的,是00000001111111111的電腦語言了……

 

 

除了語言、歷史、理論、電腦了得,盼盼還是音樂神童,我到廣州盼盼家留宿時,看見她房間有一架直立式鋼琴,才知盼盼會彈琴,我纏着盼盼彈首曲子來聽,她嫌我煩,才敷衍地彈了一首蕭邦的幻想即興曲,誰知她打開琴蓋,一音剛下,就不得了……

所有音符如流水湧出,卻絲毫不亂,如行雲流水、如水銀瀉地、如梳布織絲,她在黑白琴鍵上飛快移動的雙手上,一道道七色小彩虹不停冒出,小白羊、小白兔、小飛鳥相繼從琴鍵跳出,小房間變成伊甸園,直至琴聲既終,這些絢麗幻想才慢慢消失。

我從不知鋼琴可以如此好聽,能令人如此感動,直至此刻。

我從小揠苗助長地學琴,拉牛上樹地考到了八級,但實際連一級都不如,鋼琴學費高昂,但我媽仍堅持要我學琴,她說:「如果你將來讀不成大學,至少有一技之長,教琴餓不死你。」

鋼琴老師只教考試曲,其餘什麼都不教,一年內只猛操三首考試曲,即使考到八級,我從未被音樂感動過。

我又纏着盼盼,請她看看我彈的曲子,什麼技巧、感情先別說了,原來我連最根本的姿勢都錯了,怪不得我總是力不從心,有心無力……

原來盼盼在大學兼職教琴,哇,盼盼,妳教埋我好不好!?如果我能早點遇到盼盼就好了,起碼唔駛俾鋼琴老師教錯哂……

 

可惜盼盼在都柏林的家是分租屋,屋內無琴,聽不到盼盼的琴聲真的好可惜……

盼盼又閃着她慧黠的黑眼珠,笑道:「其實我在學大提琴啊,但大提琴在學校,今次拉不到給你聽啦。」

大提琴!這可是我在弦樂器中最喜歡的樂器!音色沉渾,低沉裊裊,令人欲罷不能。盼盼這個小妖精太可惡啦!明明知道我咁鍾意聽她彈琴,還要勾起我條癮,嗚嗚嗚……

 

 

盼盼暫時無計劃返回中國,每次返國,一落機就感受到人與豬的分別:

「你!過來!」一個穿制服的地勤指着盼盼大聲吆喝:「排在這裏!」

盼盼面對一層又一層黑壓壓人海,躁動地排隊過海關。

「就像趕豬入豬欄。」盼盼憶述。

 

但在歐洲,拖着大行李的盼盼不用開口,總有人主動幫手抬行李(上機艙頭頂櫃);迷路時向路人問路,路人甚至送她到目的地;在豬欄活了一輩子,如今才成為「人類」,換了是我,也暫無計劃返國啊……

 

 

盼盼是獨生女,是父母的掌上明珠(看名字就知道了,父母有多「盼」望盼盼),父母悉心栽培盼盼,供書教學,在廣州盼盼家,我覺得他們一家三口關係融洽。

但在都柏林時,盼盼才告訴我,原來為了出國讀書,曾與家人小冷戰。

我非常身同感受,我在香港辭工後,父母期望我立即找下一份工作,但我卻跑去旅行,我很重視父母,父母的意見對我影響很大,但我想去旅行的信念更強,即使父母反對,我仍堅持出行,最重視的父母不了解自己最重視的旅行,是有點傷心,但正如盼盼所言,只能耐心地、恒久地、不停地,向父母解釋再解釋自己的信念,即使父母最終不明白,亦不同意自己的選擇,但「有心溝通」的態度很重要。

 

中國(香港也是)仍是相對(歐洲而言)更保守的社會,女大當婚的觀念仍重,我與盼盼也常被父母催婚,我爸坦言:「人生要生個孩子才完滿。」言下之意叫我不要去旅行,快點結婚生子,我不信女人的價值只在肚子,不論男女,就該活得自由自在。

 

對於催婚,盼盼山高皇帝遠,她輕鬆地拋下一句:「隨緣啦,想拍自然有拖拍啦~」

 

 

這次來都柏林,盼盼簡直脫變成大美人,那頭爆炸長髮燙成優雅捲髮,昔日在廣州隨便穿的卡通T恤通通拋棄了,換上了fast fashion的緊身襪褲(美腿強調)、鮮紅外套(搶眼搶眼)、純白圍巾(清純文藝)、黑色長靴(型格型格),昔日的廣仔小馬騮,變成都柏林的美麗孔雀了。

 

我在都柏林時,盼盼常請一位白人男同事來串門子,他高大英俊、粗眉大眼,我總覺盼盼對他有意思,但盼盼卻矢口否認,我也傻傻的信以為真,老纏着盼盼陪我玩,盼盼也一如以往,與人意見相左時,只會笑而不語,很有技巧地脫身了,我當時有點生氣,心想:「我大老遠來都柏林看你,你卻不陪我玩……」

 

但現在回想,我無考慮到盼盼要返工,她腳傷初癒,不宜遠行,我將自己的旅行看得太重,忽略了盼盼的日常生活;我很感激盼盼的寬宏大量,即使我忽然提早到埗,她也幫我聯絡當地朋友Anthony與Pauline,令我有瓦遮頭;即使她腳傷初癒,她也跛着腳的陪我看都柏林大學的凱爾經;即使她工作繁忙,她也請我在中餐館吃飯傾偈,我應該感激朋友對我的關顧,而不是無限放大、記憶微不足道的小芥蒂。

 

 

諺語:妨礙別人戀愛會被馬踢。

幸好我在都柏林無遇見馬。

我回香港後,中秋節skype盼盼,才知盼盼與那美男白人拍了拖,仲已經分手了,我在都柏林的直覺果然無錯,原來我真的在妨礙盼盼瘟仔而不自知!

盼盼也果然天才,在纏身的我與白美男之間,應對如流,應付得游刃自如,愛死妳啦盼盼!❤

 

 

 

 

This is Panpan. She is a real beauty.

 

 

Panpan and I knew each other in the university in Hong Kong. She was an exchanged student from Guang Zhou. We lived in the same dorm and on the same floor.

Panpan never argued. She would just smile in front of different opinions. She was a small figure but agile as a monkey. Her black eyes always shone with wisdom. Her black hair was like a super curvy wave. Every hair was curve as an Africans’ hair. Her long black bomb hair was her outstanding trademark.

 

I was hosted by Panpan in her home in Guang Zhou years ago. (Thanks for the warm hospitality of Panpan’s mum & dad:) Her home was on the third floor and we have to climb the stairs. Her home toilet was a squat toilet and the flushing water had to be collected from a basket. That was my first time in my life to do my poo on a squat toilet and I was amazed how adaptable was a human could be…

 

Panpan’s home was in a relaxing neighbourhood. Everyone went out on streets in pajamas. People were having breakfast, practising Tai Chi, dancing, playing chess on streets. Panpan wore a cartoon T shirt and went out on street just like everyone.

 

Panpan was stayed in my home in Hong Kong too. My home toilet was a sitting toilet with a press button for flushing water. Panpan said excitedly after using, ‘Your home toilet is so advanced!’

 

 

I really believe Panpan is a genius. She was majoring in Philosophy when I first met her. Her eyes always shone because she always had a discovery in new knowledge. She would share her discovery with me when we met, ‘I was fascinated with this theory now…’ Then she began her lectures on Marxism, Nietzsche the Killing-God, Freud the Big-Dreamer…….etc

 

Panpan went back to Guang Zhou after her exchanged semester finished in Hong Kong. We met again after one or two years. I asked Panpan, ‘What theory fascinated you today?’

She smiled mysteriously, ‘I am fascinated in history now!’ Then she start lecturing me about the brief history of Europe, Asia history and criticizing modern politics. And she spoke well. She graduated double major in Philosophy AND History finally.

 

 

Panapn was going to Dublin to study her master degree after she got her degree in Guang Zhou. And her majoring in master degree was Digital! Engineering! An art degree graduated apply for an IT master degree and was being recruited is really unbelievable. Panapn is really amazing!

 

But there were more amazing things happened. Panapn got a job in Dublin quickly after her graduation. She was working in I! B! M! That is a BIG, INTERNATIONAL, WORLD WIDE company with a high salary and good benefits and even able to extend her VISA. And the luckiest thing is, Panapn really LOVES her job. She kept lecturing me on computer language like 00000001111111111 in Dublin...

 

 

Panpan is not JUST good in language, history, theories and company, she is good in MUSIC too.

I didn’t know Panpan can play piano until I saw there was a piano in Panpan’s room when I stayed in her home in Guang Zhou. I begged Panpan many times to play a small piece of music and she perfunctory played Chopin’s Fantasie Impromptu to get rid of me. But when she opened the piano and played the first note, OH MY GOD…

 

Every music note was flowing out like water, like wind, like wave. Her hands was moving fast on the piano. Rainbows with sever colors were keep flowing out from her hands. Little white sheep, little white rabbits and little flying birds were jumping out from the piano. Her room became Garden Eden. These beautiful fantasy slowly disappeared when the music stop.

 

I never knew piano could be THAT amazing, THAT touching until that moment.

 

I was forced to learn piano when I was a kid. I had a grade 8 certificate but I barely qualified grade 1. My mum insisted on my piano tutoring ever the fees were super expensive.

She said, ‘You would have a practical skill if you can’t get in college. Teaching piano would make a good money.’

My piano teacher only taught me songs for exam. I only practiced the 3 exam songs again and again for ONE YEAR. I was qualified in grade 8 piano but I was NEVER moved by music.

 

I begged Panpan to listen to my playing. She pointed out that I was wrong in the first position, not to say other techniques or emotion presentation. No wonder I always felt so frustrated and failure in piano…

And Panpan actually taught piano part time in her college in Guang Zhou. Wow, could you please teach me piano too, Panpan? I wish I could meet you earlier so I didn’t have to be taught wrong by my piano teacher…

 

 

Panpan was living in a share house in Dublin. There was no piano in the house. It’s a pity that I didn’t have the opportunity to listen to Panpan’s piano in Dublin.

Panpan’s blackish eyes were shining again, she smiled and said, ‘Actually I am learning cello! But the cello was in the college. I am sorry I can’t play it for you this time,’

Oh, Cello! My favorite string instrument! It has a low echo voice, just fascinating! Panpan you little goblin…You KNEW I love listening to your music and you tempted me with an empty illusion...

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Panpan didn’t have a plan to go back to China yet. She said she felt the different of being a human and being a pig every time she went back home.

‘You! Come!’ A man in uniform was pointing to Panpan and shouted to her in the airport, ‘Queue here!’

There were layers of black wave people sea in front of Panpan. Everybody was queueing impatiently for the customs.

‘Just like chasing pigs into the pigsty,’ said Panpan.

 

Panpan can always find a helping hand to load her luggage into the top shelter on the plane in Europe. People may even took her to her destination if she gets lost on streets and asks for direction in Ireland. She lived her life in a pigsty and became ‘human’ finally. I would certainly have no plan to go back to China If I were her.

 

 

Panpan was the only daughter at home. Her parents love her very much. (Panpan’s Chinese name means ‘hoping’. It show how eager her parents were expecting her birth.) Her parents gave Panpan a good education and living condition. They had a good relationship when I met them in their home in Guang Zhou.

But Panpan told me they had a little cold war because she wants to study abroad in Dublin.

 

I knew Panpan’s feeling exactly. My parents want me to look for another job when I quit my job in Hong Kong. But I go travel instead. I love my parents and their opinions had a great influence on me. But my travel desire are stronger so I just go despite their objection.

It was a bit sad for me that my beloved parents don’t treasure my beloved travel passion. But just as Panpan said, we can just be patient, be consistent, continuously explaining our believing. Willing to communicate is very important even they can’t understand and don’t agree with our choices.

 

China (Hong Kong too) is still a conservative society comparatively (to Europe). Girls (and boys) should get marry is still a social expectation. Panpan and I was always asked ‘when will you get marry?’ by our parents.

My dad said frankly, ‘Life is complete until you give birth to a child,’ what he means is that I shouldn’t travel but I should get marry and have kids. I don’t believe a woman’s value just depend on her belly. Human was born free and should live free, no matter girls or boys.

 

Panpan was far away from her parents so the pressure of getting marry was not high. She just simply said, ‘A good marriage depends on luck but dating is easy, it’s not difficult to date someone if I want~’

 

 

Panpan was TRANSFORMED into a beautiful elegant pretty lady in Dublin. Her bomb hair was tamed into an elegant wavy hair. The old cartoon T shirt which she wore in Guang Zhou were disappeared and changed into fast fashion style like tight leggings(legs showing), bright red coat (eye-catching), white scarf (pure look) and black boot (cool~) The little monkey in Guang Zhou transformed into a beautiful peacock in Dublin.

 

Panpan always invited a white male colleague for outing when I was in Dublin. He was a handsome guy with a good figure. I always thought Panpan like him but Panpan denied and I (stupidly) believed so I always asking Panpan to go out to play with me. Panpan is always Panpan. She would just smiled when her thoughts are different with others and skip away skillfully.

I was a bit upset and thought, ‘I took a long journey to Dublin to visit you but you don’t play with me…’

 

I was not being a considerate friend in Dublin when I looked back now. I didn’t consider that Panpan had to go to work and she was recovering from her hurt foot and shouldn’t walk much. I put too much emphasis on my travel but neglected Panpan’s daily life.

I greatly appreciate Panpan’s generosity. She linked me up with her local friends Anthony and Pauline for my first night staying in Dublin even I arrived in Dublin suddenly earlier.

She companied me to see the Book of Kells in Dublin University even her foot was not good for outing.

She treat me a nice Chinese dinner and we had a nice dinner chat even with her busy working schedule.

I should be graceful with all the cares that all my lovely friends gave me but not overemphasis and remember little arguments.

 

 

Proverb: being an obstacle of other people love would be kicked by horse.

Luckily I did not meet a horse in Ireland.

I went back to Hong Kong and skype with Panpan in the Mid-Autumn festival. I finally knew Panpan was dating with that white handsome colleague guy and even broke up with him already. My instinct was right in Dublin. I was a romance obstacle between Panpan and that handsome white guy without self-conscious!

Panpan is really a true genius. She had the troublesome me and that handsome white guy well-handle and well tame.

Love you so much, Panpan! ❤

盼盼與畫Panpan&the picture
望住雪糕出神的盼盼Panpan who is looking at the ice cream and dreaming...
魔女盼Panpan the witch
繼續文青pretty!
文青盼pretty panpan
簡直係時裝相啦just like a fashion shot!
靚盼!Pretty Pan!
靚盼Pretty Panpan
盼盼帶我在大學逛Panpan and I walked in college
我的床my bed
都柏林大學好靚呀~Dublin U is beautiful!
成列in a row
建築the building
貓頭鷹眼,或胸!Owl's eyes, or breast
自助self help
雕花flower on stone
在校內in the college
好啊Good!
會動金球that golden ball can move
好似英國,勁多白痴牌many damn notice board like UK
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